Lifestyle Diary

In my quest for perfect skin, I have decided to start a food diary to see if what I eat affects my breakouts. I have managed to control the scarring but I can’t seem to stop breakouts from happening.

Some say it’s stress, some say it’s the dental mask that I have over my face half the day and some say it’s my diet. Some also say it’s my skincare products. I’m going to get to the bottom of this. The problem is that there’s such a massive mix of everything I don’t even know where to begin!

On Friday I had raisin toast with butter, pasta with red sauce and chorizo, a Drumstick and some marshmallows and tea. Stress – high. Breaking out.

Yesterday I had pasta with red sauce, tea, chorizo and cheese, pop corn, chocolate, marshmallows, a Drumstick and pretty much a whole bunch of trash because we spent the day watching the entire Star Wars series. Breaking out.

Today’s fare included marshmallows, tea, lunch at Spicy Fish, pasta with red sauce and chorizo and cheese and seedless grapes. Breaking out.

Together, Not Apart

I’ve been trying to figure out why I can readily loan out some of my things but not others. Yesterday I finally realised what the problem was – I have serious problems dealing with lending out things that are in sets.

For example, if you want to borrow Book 2 out of a series of 5 books – I am deeply uncomfortable. Because somewhere in my psyche I feel my set is incomplete.

Same with Tupperwares – I can’t loan out one out of a set of 6 because they’re not together.

However, if someone was to borrow an entire set of books that will be okay. 

Getting increasingly neurotic with time. :S

Yoga

After a 6 month hiatus (probably more) I am returning to Yoga class tonight!

I have to admit that this is in preparation for the Global Corporate Challenge. Basically for 14 weeks I will be recording the number of steps I take in a day (apparently one should aim for 10 000) and it all goes towards a team total. Seeing that I don’t like disappointing people I figured it will be good to start getting a little fitter before it officially starts.

Maybe fitness will be my next thing.

My Interests

Someone asked me recently what do I do with my time.

Where do I begin?

I dived into my extensive list of things that I have tried out in recent times.

Ikebana. Make up. Arometherapy. Microdermabrasion. Interior design. Photography. Baking. Pumpkin carving. Gingerbread house building. Watermelon carving. Candles. Stationery. Guitar. 

I think the question is what am I not interested in – sports and politics.

Scented Candles

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Do you know what’s my favourite new thing? Scented candles!

I don’t know how it started. All I know is that one day I went to Minimax and came home with a 100 hour Voluspa candle (Elysian Garden – it smells amazing!) and the next week I bought another from Ecoya because it happened to be on sale. And now that’s all I can think about. Yes – candles. Who knew? In case you were wondering, my life is pretty boring at the moment. That might be a significant contributing factor.

I have always liked to create a unrealistic airbrushed environment in my apartment. Well, we all know I like my apartment looking like it just fell out of a magazine. Now I also want it to smell like it did. This strange fixation has led to a lot of milimetre specific shuffling of my personal items to achieve the accidentally-perfectly-draped-and-placed look of everything.

I think it’s a sickness.

 

Natio Rosewater and Chamomile Toner

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I have struggled a lot with picking out a toner for my skin. After a lot of experimentation I’ve decided that I like this a lot. It feels extremely calming and smells lovely. The only reason why I wouldn’t recommend it is if you don’t like the scent of roses because it’s quite noticable. Otherwise, a complete winner! It’s inexpensive too which is an added bonus.

The Three Best Days of Your Life

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I was on a date tonight with Cat Boy. I posed my classical first date question – what are the three best days of your life? He gave me his answers and asked me for mine in turn.

I have played this game no less than fifty times – I used to reel off my beautifully composed standard answer glibly. But tonight I blanked out – for the life of me I couldn’t remember the answer to my own question.

I got home and it came back to me. Of course – my first date with D. The day I picked up Milton from the breeder. And the day I got upgraded to first class when my self esteem was at its all time low.

It struck me that the reason why I couldn’t remember is because that phase of my life was buried. After all, I don’t see D or Milton anymore. And my self esteem has been rebuilt. I avoid thinking about any of it now. 

People have posed to me the suggestion that perhaps I was not ready to be in a relationship – I still had more things I had to do before I embarked on that journey. I have always brushed them off – I am ready! I want to fall in love and share my life with someone.

After tonight, I am not so sure. As I replay the conversation I had with my date, I could hear the underlying pain in my words.

I gave up my dog and still felt the guilt 1.5 years later. I don’t love my job but that is something that I know I can do, so I do it. I love reading books but do it as quickly as possible because I need to know what happens in the end. I have a theory about everything. 

I am still damaged but I don’t know how to fix it.

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